12/14 flight, after finding out that my morning flight got cancelled only in the 8AM airport and dealing with the frustration from that while rescheduling for tonight, I guess I can’t help but have these background cache running. Used to call it anxiety, now I just embrace it. When the tsunami comes (I have this perfect drawing in my head, reminder to draw it out — for not showing anyone like you guys, if there even is an audience lol, but for my habit of executing whatever is in my head, because there exist great outcomes in the productions rather than consumptions of thoughts) I let them wander, and write them down non-stressingly. So here.
Last time I was in a plane ride from Prague to SFO, I had a similar tsunami: an instagram page. I was going to start off by posting all of my lovely travel content in a new instagram account (beautiful photo spots, nice restaurants, my up-close life, honest no-bullshit and personal review, etc), a whole new persona that I can make it to be whoever, (that is, nicely put; poorly put, cat fish) but now I see it being hard. It's too much. Too time consuming. Every time there is the usage of word too, its a misalignment of effort and purpose. Of course, it is not entirely additive and congruent with my general life direction, yet.
I had this idea of myADHDdiary.com: in tsunamis (or tornadoes? since these tsunamis have a central motif that bring back thoughts)